How neglectful I have been...

This morning I developed film for the first time.  It was exciting but I was rather worried that my pictures would not turn out.  When I finally got to see my film I saw that every picture had turned out!  Now HOW they turned out is the question.  Last night I was in an abominable mood due to overexhaustion and an attack of allergy problems. (I cleaned a house madly inbetween church and choir practice yesterday, all the while breathing more dust than I care to fully acknowledge.  The day before I worked 41/2 hours before almost killing my out-of-shape body for thirty-five minutes on the elliptical and then played a mean and pathetic game of ping pong in Founders with my adorable friend Hope, walked back and forth from my apartment and finally slowed down realizing I was not feeling well.)  (I enjoy putting as much information within parenthesis so as to cause people to forget what I was originally talking about.)

I have changed my attitude about my ability to learn photography.  I just need to stop griping and just put forth a tiny bit of positive effort.  One tiny step at a time.  It's a good thing Gretchen is my housemate, and I thank God for the blessed woman who called me to help me get up on time this morning. 

These days I might look a little bit more like I have things together, what with my new job in Admissions and needing to dress up more often in addition to my new growing positive outlook on my life and the daily tasks that are before me.  It is only by the grace of God that I can ever have anything together.  I have to ask for help all the time.  I am gaining my independence by accepting my dependence on God and others.  (Weird how that works!)  I went without financial worry to the ophthamologist a week and half ago thanks to my wonderful church.  My car is getting many essential parts replaced and I will soon be driving it again, thanks to my wonderful church.  I walk around wearing glasses that are nearly my perscription and give me a new and well-appreciated look thanks to my friend Anna. I will be getting new glasses, thanks to my church.  I have cash for groceries and other needs, thanks to the Crosses who give me babysitting and housecleaning jobs. 

I am increasing in confidence thanks to the body of Christ, i.e. my church community, college community, and amazing friends.  My life is getting better because I am replacing my pride with the acceptance of the better things that only God can give me.  I say all this not to brag about how much God loves me, but to be an encouragement and testimony.  It's important for Christians to witness Jesus to each other too.